Friday, June 12, 2015
A Healthy Disrespect for Doctors
Tuesday, May 19, 2015
My Body Has Betrayed Me
Sunday, May 10, 2015
For Mother's Day
As my second post on this blog, it is long overdue. Sorry, I haven't had any inspiration and I've suffered from extreme fatigue for a long time, now. I blame it on the pain in my belly which is exhausting. I just haven't felt good, not enough of a flare to put me in the hospital, but enough to keep me down. I'm feeling a little better now, and I hope to write more post in the future.
In honor of Mother's Day, I'd like to say a few words about my mother in relation to my IBD. I'm one of the lucky ones. She has been through a lot with me and, as we like to say, "We're in this together."
While I can't speak to how my mother felt when I was first diagnosed, I was scared half to death and I'm sure she was, too. My first night in the hospital, as I think I have already mentioned, while I was having a painful blood transfusion, she stayed with me and read to me from my favorite book at the time, "Restaurant at the End of the Universe." She has helped me deal with doctor's, often making phone calls to them because I have an unreasonable dislike for the telephone, (I've gotten better at it.) and she still goes with me to my GI appointments, we've done it for this long why stop now. :p She has been my best advocate, though I can't overlook my father's role, but this is about mothers. When I'm in the hospital she takes the 12 hour night shift, my father the day. I can't begin to tell you how helpful and stress reducing it is to have someone there to advocate with the nurses and doctors. She's also there in the middle of the night when I need to go to the bathroom, can't get out of bed by myself and can't wait for the nurse to come. Mostly, she is just there, always, in and out of the hospital. She learned to be a short order cook when I was first diagnosed and had a restricted diet, and she has learned to cook gluten free now that I can't eat wheat. She is empathetic and selfless, she is my first and best friend. I could not have survived this journey without her.
I love you Mom
Saturday, June 28, 2014
An Introduction
Hi, I'm Paula and I have Crohn disease, IBS, a j-pouch, and chronic pouchitis. Click the "about me" tab to read more about my story. After you read this post, of course. ;)
I'm not sure what made me want to start a blog. There are so many better bloggers out there who can tell their story and advocate better than I ever could. Still, I thought I might have a different perspective.
I'm also not sure what I want this blog to be; advocacy, catharsis, providing another view of IBD. To be honest, mostly I think it's for catharsis. Everyone needs an outlet, somewhere to have your voice heard. I'm no different.
When I was fifteen years old I hurt my ankle. My doctor diagnosed it as arthralgia, and I spent several weeks that summer on crutches. My doctor put me on Naproxen, not a smart move. Shortly after that I started having symptoms of IBD; bloody diarrhea, pain and dramatic weight loss being the most prominent. I was taken to the hospital on July 31st. Blood transfusions, massive doses of prednisone (this was 1986, after all), what I thought was a colonoscopy , but which might have been a sigmoidoscopy, with no anesthetic. Within a few days, they diagnosed me with Ulcerative Colitis. That is how I spent the summer of my sixteenth birthday.
There's not much I remember about all that happened 28 years ago. I remember being scared out of my mind and not knowing how to tell my parents about the bloody diarrhea. I remember my father carrying me to the car to take me to the hospital, because I was too weak to walk. I remember my mother reading Douglas Adams to me, overnight, while I was having a painful blood transfusion. She'd read, I'd fall asleep; she'd stop reading and fall asleep; I'd wake up and wake her up, and the cycle continued. I remember the excruciating scope, and seeing the monitor with my bloody intestine in all its gory glory. I remember not knowing what was this "colon" of which the doctor kept speaking. I don't know whether my stupidity was because I was that stupid or because I was so out of it. Either way it still cracks me up.
I know, logically that I am one of the lucky ones. I did not suffer for more than a few weeks, before they came back with a diagnoses. I have no horror stories of years of frequent hospital stays. I do have my hospital horror stories, just not as many as some. I did have to be hospitalized overnight for colonoscopy prep, because I would get dehydrated, couldn't keep up with the output. I went into shock once during the prep and had to be hospitalized for a week. After that, I needed IV fluid support anytime they did a scope. Now that I have a j-pouch, I can handle the prep, just fine.
This is just an introduction to my story. I plan to post as often as I can and, with luck my blog will find a place in this community.